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Sometimes I Just Can't Help It


Assalammualaikum,



Only 1 week left until I complete my 45 days confinement. However, I don't know why in particular, I am feeling really really sad today. And to give myself some justice, I shed some tears. It's been a long time since I cry for my baby. Maybe within weeks or days? I can't remember. I'm feeling blank most of the time. It's not that I'm not accepting the fact that baby angel Aqeel is gone, crying is just something I need to do, to mend my heart.




Crying is actually a way to cope with grief and loss. Crying can heal me. I feel a lot better after crying, when I'm thinking of my baby angel. But, according to articles about Loss and Grief, crying will stop when I accept the fact that baby angel is no longer with us. Crying will stop when I let go. Crying will stop when I am thankful for the great moment we had with baby angel Aqeel.

  • I am accepting the fact.
  • I am letting go
  • I am thankful for the opportunity of carrying baby angel Aqeel in my womb for 9 months (the joy and happiness) and giving birth naturally

But, sometimes I just can't help it.



MamaAqeel

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6 comments:

  1. Anakanda Amelna, jgn kedak ia....its not gud for ur health. Nangis sekali sekala its ok tp jgn ingatkan gilak. Takut jadi bebanan fikiran & perasaan. We all love u very much ...kesedihan kitak kesedihan mami juak cuma mami x tunjukkan depan kitak. Pliz kuatkan hati, belajar untuk lebih tabah & jgn biarkan kehilangan itu menjadi halangan utk menghadapi hari-hari yang lebih mencabar. Kita pernah mengalami kehilangan yang sangat perit namun kehidupan harus diteruskan....

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  2. Thank you so much Mami. InsyaAllah lepas tok kamek akan lebih kuatkan hati k? Love u so much!

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  3. mel,
    bertenang k.
    betul tu dear..sy skang,bila dgr org lahirkan baby,atau ngandung,sy start rasa jeles..sedih.tp rezki kita semua tak sama kan..

    hanya le berdoa.fhm sgt perasaan mel..lg2 mel anak pertama..
    insyaallah mel,ada rezki lagi buat mel n orang2 cam kita.rahsia allah tersembunyi.mgkn bkn di dunia,tp di akhirat kelak..

    pray 4me too k?saya sendiri nak sgt ngandung lagi,tapi takut kejadian berulang.rabu ni check up doc,nanti kita bitau eh keputusan IUD kita tu..

    take care..

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  4. Thanks a lot Ashra sebab berkongsi perasaan dengan Mel. Memang berat ujian ini, tapi itulah ketentuan hidup Mel dan suami.

    Mel doakan kita dapat rezeki cahaya mata lagi selepas ini, termasuk isteri-isteri yang masih belum mengandung, untuk dimurahkan rezeki dikurniakan baby. AMIN

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  5. Crying is completely normal considering what you've been through. Don't feel guilty for it. We grieve our babies because we love them so much. Maybe we will always cry when we think of them.

    Cry as much as you need to. I'm so sorry for your loss.

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  6. Salam Melna,
    Sedih bila baca cerita ktk. Sabar k.
    Mun kamek di tempat kitak sik taulah kamek dapat sekuat kitak sik.

    InsyaAllah, rezeki kita akan sampei juak kelak. Do take care of urself ya...

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